MsDeniseRose

Hey all! Sorry I haven’t been on this weekend much - been pretty crazy! So Friday I had my weigh-in, and I had lost 2.2 lbs, so I am now at 234.4. Wahoo! I ended getting my TOM AGAIN 2 weeks in a row, b/c of a BC mess up. My bad. But it is done again, so this week I will make sure I am on top of it. So Saturday was my OSU vs Michigan party, and I definitely didn’t do the best choices. I had orginally planned to work out at 8am before the party to kick my metabolism in high gear, but I went out to my car and it wouldn’t start. So since I was the driver anyways for the party, I decided to leave my car be and worry about it today (Sunday). So I ended up not working out. At the party I definitely had too many cocktails (EMPTY CALORIES), and I had 2 pieces of pizza over the course of the day, but only a few munchies. I know I came in under my calories food wise, but with the alcohol and unhealthiness of the food, it was a setback. But like I have posted before, I will not deprive myself, and it was a special occasion. This week I will make up for it :).

SOOOOO, my car. I spent ALL DAY trying to fix it. I thought it was the battery, but I couldn’t get a jump, so I took the battery out, went and bought a new one, installed that and it still won’t work. So my Dad is coming over tomorrow to take a look. UGH! I hate car problems - seriously. The guy at auto zone thinks it is the starter, but my car is a 2006 - seems pretty premature for that to go wrong on my car. Grrrrr - but today when I got my bf and his sister food, even though I was stressed and could have totally binged on my way back to the house, I was fine not getting anything and ate my left over chicken burrito I made. Stress did not beat me today - usually things like this would set me off, but noooope! So although I had a pretty naughty weekend, I am still feeling good and positive. Now, lets see if I can get my car fixed tomorrow. My bf’s sister is driving their parents spare car, and is letting me use hers, so I really owe her. Thank goodness for good friends and family. Have a great week ya’ll!!

Hey everyone!!

So I have been dying for a burger, and got this great recipie from BL cookbook. I simplify a lot of things, because I don’t like using 20 ingriedients, but basically I bought 1lb ground turkey breast, and  mixed it with 1T egg subsitute, 1T bread crumbs, I diced up some kind of spicy pepper (any pepper you like would do!), 1t Worchestire sauce, and them made them into patties, and cooked them on the stove (I can’t wait for xmas to get my new george foreman - I might have to beg my sweetie to buy me one early lol). Then I used 1 pc fat free american and 1 pc fat free swiss and turkey bacon on it. MMMM! It was really good. And filling. I made 3 thick patties out of the pound, but I learned my lesson from trying to cook them that I need to make them smaller next time.  My side was this recipie for asparagus, you put 1T olive oil and 1T balsamic vinegrette in a ziploc bag and mix them up so they are coated then bake at 400 degrees until crispy. Delicious! Usually I steam my veggies, but this was great. I will add it to my recipies when I get a chance.

I hope you all had a great start to the week. I can’t wait until Friday to weigh-in. I did write a message in someone’s blog today about how so many past times I have failed, but this time my difference is I realize it is not a quick fix, and it takes time and patience to change your life around. Tomorrow will be my offical 5 week anniversary of no binge eating, sneaking food behind my loved ones backs, or eating greasy foods. What a milestone for me. I am so happy.

The following are quotes from my diet journal. Each day it has an inspirational quote or a tip, so I thought I would share them.

“Celebrate you success everyday. Be proud of what you have accomplished and continue to envision the future you”

“Adding new food and variety to your plan will help keep your diet interesting and keep you motivated.”

“Don’t be too hard on yourself if you happen to stumble in your plan along the way. Be sure not to use it as an excuse to stop exercising or your weight-loss program. Just remind yourself that tomorrow is another day, and you CAN get back on track.”

Can’t wait to blog Friday. Here is to success for us all!!

So last night was awesome - I really enjoyed my meal out with my girlfriends, and didn’t over do it. It is like a ‘meat’ buffet, where they come around with meats on a stick, and if you want it they cut off a piece for you. I researched the meats before I went that they served, and only took the lean ones. And I had a large salad from the salad bar before my meats, so I wouldn’t overdo. I am sure the salt intake was bad, but it was rewarding!!

Today at the gym I really wanted to get to a new level. I worked out for 2 hours - and killed it. And I RAN ON THE TREADMILL. For 5 minutes, but it is all in strides. I hate running on treadmills, I am so off balance as it is, and I could feel my butt up and down, lol! Anyways, according to the machines I burned 1300, plus all my strenth training. :)  I usually do about 900, and spend 1 hour 20 minutes. I figure once a week I would really push it. Today was my day off, so I figured I would watch the OSU game and workout, and it flew by!! OH YEAH! WAHHHOOOO OHIO STATE!!! Whoop whoop!

I hope everyone is having a productive weekend!!

Last night after the gym I decided to take my “before pictures”. Even though I have already started loosing, not like it would make that much difference. So, after taking them with the automatic timer, OH MY GOSH! LOL, at least I can laugh about it, before I would usually cry, but I know I am working on it. But man! I did the front, side, and back, and let me tell you , I have a whole new PUSH to get my a$$ moving on that treadmill!!

So I have been hopping around from weigh-in day to a different day, I wanted to weigh-in w/ my challenges Saturday, but Friday night is my night out, and although I don’t drink in excessive amounts, I don’t want those 4 beers killing me Saturday morning. So FRIDAY is my day. Its official, period, no more changing. So I weighed in this morning at 236.6, which was a little less then a pound lost this week. Not the trend I have been on, but it was “my week” this week (boy you guys are gonna be glad to not hear that anymore!), and I feel like I continued my diet and exercise without missing a beat, and did not give into those evil chocolate temptations, so I am hoping for a big loss next week. I am really gonna push it! I have really been throwing back the water, and feeling good.

I have a dinner date with my two girlfriends tonight, and we are going to Brasa. It is the most delicious meat place ever, not to mention pricey! I cannot wait to get my hands on their extensive salad bar and filet mignon! I haven’t eaten red meat since Sunday, and I love it, so my mouth has been watering all day. HUGE workout planned for tomorrow - Can’t wait to push it!! And I am going shopping this weekend and getting myself some new tennis shoes! We went grocery shopping last night, and I WAY overspent, but I stocked up on a lot of dry and non-perishable things I have needed, and got lots of fruits and veggies.

Habit is habit and not to be flung out of the window by any man, but coaxed downstairs a step at a time. - Mark Twain

The good Lord gave you a body that can stand most anything. It’s your mind you have to convince. - Vincent Lombardi

The time for action is now. It’s never too late to do something. - Carl Sandburg 

I hope everyone has a FABULOUS weekend!!!!.

Hey all - so it is “that time of the month”, and this is the first time I have had it while trying to loose weight, and I don’t want it to slow me down. Has anyone experianced different results, or difficulties with this time? Any suggestions to make this week go smooth? Or is there really no difference between this week and all the others?? Any comments or tips appreciated!! Thanks!!

Oh and on a gross note, totally ate moldy bread this morning. Ugh, I didn’t notice it on my first piece b/c I had my egg whites on it, but then when I was eating the plain toast, I was like wtf??? Yuk. I have googled it, and I guess I will live. LOL.

Hey everyone! Hope ya’ll had a great weekend! Another new week is here, which means another week of healthy lifestyle changes. yAy! Weighed-in yesterday for the challenge and lost another 2.5 lbs. I am loving it. I am now into the 230’s so naturally, I can’t wait to be in the 220’s again! Had a great workout this morning - pushed myself and hit a new ‘record.’ Gotta love it. My mom called to see if I wanted to come over for lasagna, and today’s plan was to clean up and relax, but now I am thinking of going over. My mom makes the best lasagna, so I figured I can eat a big salad, and have a little piece of her heaven.

I have offically scheduled my vacation to visit my cousin who works in MD temporarliy so I will be going out there for a week in the middle of December. I can’t wait! Just another thing to work hard for. I hear MD is beautiful, and while she is working I will have lots of time to sight see, and explore.

“Instead of giving myself reasons why I can’t, I give myself reasons why I can.” Unknown.

“Never, never, never, never give up.” Winston Churchill

“The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!” Marvin Phillips

Have a GREAT week all! We got this!!

So I just posted yesterday - but I had some random things!

There are numerous things I love to take away from the gym. Here are a few:

1. I am proud of how disgustingly sweaty I am after a good workout. I love to look at how sweaty my clothes are. Gross, maybe, but you know you did good.

2. I love showering after working out - you can literally taste your hard work as you wash off.

3. Laughing at myself in the mirror after a good workout, and seeing how frizzy and curly my hair got from sweating. 

4. Falling asleep after a good workout, and waking up feeling like a million dollars the next day (if you can still walk after that great workout you just had).

And of course there are many more, but those are my faves.

Also - I went to the library yesterday, to read up on Nutrition. I like information - and I like getting away from work to go to the library - but I thought understanding nutrition will assist me. I am halfway through “Nutrition for Dummies”, and I am throughly enjoying it. They make it fun, but most important it is easy to understand, and I am learning things I never knew. In case you are interested in getting away from work to go to the library too.

 Hope everyone is have a great hump day!

Good Morning All!

 So today was my last Tuesday weigh-in, as I will be adjusting to be weighing in on Saturdays. I considered just skipping today, but I have been looking forward to it all week because I could feel my success! So, before stepping on the scale this morning, I was a little nervous. What if I didn’t loose, what if my hard work didn’t pay off? I had dieted before and saw no change, but I got on it said 240! What was a 3.4 lb loss! I was very happy!! On the drive into work, I realized how different now is compared to the last diets. I feel more educated, I have more support (that definitely includes here!), and way more will power and drive then I have had since I was 21. So whoppeee!! I even woke up my boyfriend, to tell him the knews, and he wasn’t even upset I woke him up. But I got a kiss on the forehead and a I knew you can do this.

About 7 weeks ago I went to the doctor because I was tired all day long with enough sleep. I had started to adjust my eating habits, but often go off track. He tested my blood and it turned out I had low iron and low vitamin D. He put me on some prescription vitamins, but I still was tired all day long 3-4 times a week. But I can honestly say in the last 3 weeks, I have been great. I don’t feel like a nap at 1pm and 5pm. I am feeling healthly and I love it.

 So I hope everyone has a great week!!!!

“Even though the future seems so far away, it is actually beginning right now.” Mattie Stepanek

Happy Friday all, and Happy Halloween tomorrow!

I am really annoyed right now, so I figured I would blog it. I live with my boyfriend and his sister. I have finally really stuck to my diet, and I am so proud of me. But, in order for me to stick to it, I had to find healthy alternatives, and spend that extra money at the grocery store for the healthier foods, and fat free foods. When I first moved back from MI and moved in with them, we all would take turns cooking dinners and such, and then it wasn’t really a problem because we all cooked ‘cheaply’ or with lots of butter etc. So now, I am cooking almost all of my meals because I know what I am cooking is healthy. His sister started to diet, but she isn’t as focused or serious as I am about what ingriedents I am putting in. I usually won’t eat what they make because of the healthy aspect of it. My boyfriend backs me up 100%, after all I am 100 lbs heavier then when we first started dating. So the dilemma is this:

I precook a lot of chicken and ground turkey breast so I have it on hand to make practically anything. When I am hungry I am hungry, and I don’t want to wait an hour for chicken to cook. She usually asks me if I mind her having some, and I say no but really I do.

I buy almost everything fat-free. I don’t eat their cheeses, or sauces, or anything b/c they buy the full fat and calorie stuff, but I will see mine is low if they run out of theirs, or she sees cheese in their she won’t buy it b/c she thinks we don’t need it. But if we run out of my fat-free stuff, they buy the full calorie and I end up having to buy more of my own.

I buy the ground turkey breast, or the 96/4 ground beef if I am going to make something with that, and they buy the 80/20 stuff.

I just got home from clothes shopping with my cousin, and his sister’s work had a halloween party today, and she brought home all kinds of sandwiches, and a HUGE platter of sweets. I didn’t even look in it b/c I didn’t want to see cheesecake. I don’t really have a sweet tooth, but man, I HATE having that around!

This may seem petty, and I am NOT a petty person, but it is like if you eat my healthy foods, please make healthy food in return. I feel like I have spent so much on groceries, and barely eaten any of it. The last batch of chicken I made, I didn’t even get a chance to EAT any of it.

I am very proud of my determination this time around, and don’t want to rock any boats here, so does anyone have any advice? Or should I just bite my tongue and maybe they will get the point by me not eating any of their foods? I don’t mind my boyfriend eating it as much, since we share practically everything and he has been trying to cook better to help me. I am thinking it is one of those situations where it is not worth it, but it is my money and my health.

Any suggestions?? Thanks for the help!

So, this is my first blog since I was a member in August of 07, and something about my old profile and email address already used wouldn’t let me blog when I started up again. Anyways, I just created a new email account, changed the email here, and kazaam, I can blog again!

 So I hope everyone is doing good today. I wanted to blog a few weeks ago with my struggle of binge eating and how bad it had gotten - thinking if I put it out there, it becomes reality and I can’t act like I wasn’t doing it. I would eat every chance I had when no one was looking, or eat a full fast food meal on the way home from work at 5, keep it to myself, then eat dinner with my boyfriend at 5:30, no one knowing how bad I had been. but . . . . 

it has been 3 weeks exactly since I have eaten any greasy, unhealthy, let alone binge eaten. I am very proud of that. I thought weight would come off a lot faster because of  ALL THE CALORIES I used to eat, but I refuse to get unmotivated again. The only thing I have not started is exercise, which I am sure will help me drop more let alone make me feel 100% better. I am putting it in writing - tonight is the first night I go back to the gym! I got my book to read at the library so I can pedal and climb until my little heart is content!

I have really started to understand healthy cooking, and substituting little things to make a delicious healthy meal that I actually enjoy to eat.

I hope everyone has a great week!!!